Wish i didn't wanted

Endings are never easy.

Sometimes there is a need to make it quick.

Sometimes we want to make it quick. For our own comfort? Because we dont care?

Is it that? Maybe behind all rush there is pain that we don't see. Maybe we don't want to see. maybe we hide it behind the wall without knowing that between every brick is a small space.

This pain sneaks out slowly to gently bite us everytime we try to make something different.

Gently but efficiently. In the end wall falls, pain eats us all forcing to see what was inside.

Sometimes endings happen in time. With no rush, spread over time. Does it make it easier?

Sometimes endings happen before we even realize. Dying in slow motion.

How does it feel like to be the one sitting next to something you love the most, knowing it will never be yours again? Does it hurt much? Does it hurt long?

How does it feel like to cause this kind of pain?

How does it feel to destroy whole castle that was suppose to be your "dream come true"

Is there a right way?

I was asked "what it is that you wish for?"

I can not answer, because that was also my wish once.

I'm afraid to wish...

So i try to see myself with your eyes... i feel like i'm the villain here.

I wasn't doing enough, i wasn't listening enough, i wasn't appreciating enough, i wasn't trying...

Wasn't i?

Or maybe i was trying too long, not seen, not heard, not recognized, that i used every power i had.

Keep in mind...

With every breath, with every heartbeat... there is a new universe created for you.

With every breath, with every heartbeat... there is a new beginning if you choose.

One step after another.